ALEISTAR CROWLEY 666

Aleistar Crowley was born Edward Alexander Crowley in Lemington, Warwickshire, England in 1875. He felt that he was born with special powers to be Lucifer's prophet. Crowley was the son of a brewer, his father was a part-time preacher in the Plymouth brethren. Senior Crowley was a zealot who would deliver powerful anti sex, anti freedom of thought and anti being sermons that spawned heavy guilt trips on his parishioners causing inklings of  powerless. This gave cause for the unlettered and poor people to recoile from one another in guilt and confusion, neurotically.  The rigid social and cultural yokes laid on the people of  Victorian society caused the English people to live uninspired, hackneyed and boring lifes.

Aleistar was presented with the task of preaching along side his father at the age of 12.  By 15 young Crowley rebelled against the draconian Victorian Jesus yoke.  With as much zealotry as his Reverend father clasp the Bible to his bosom, young Aleistar did a one-eighty to the dark side embracing the tenebrous teachings of the occult, which he would pursue through his life. 

Aleistar Crowley was a brilliant academic, poet, writer and performance artist.  His creative mind and free thinking were off the chart for the 19th Century. By 17 he was cast to the stones by zombie eyed religious parents who were afraid of him. Upon testing, interviewing and presenting his writings to Trinity College, Cambridge he was immediately accepted without trepidation. His early work at Cambridge was black art,  brilliant and ground breaking theologic thinking, cracking a hole through the heavy fuck -yoke of the Victorians. 

After three quarters Crowley outgrew Cambridge, he took what he needed from Cambridge, Learning Latin, Eastern Studies, Geometric form, Symbolism, Numerology, Archeology, History of Ancient Roman, Greek Classics, Mythology. Eygptian Sun Gods, The Sun as God, Alchemy. All as a compass to map out dark movement, free-world thinking, drugs, free sex and fun with evil! LORD what a breath-taking-space, in the fixated, fuck guilt yoke of the VICTORIAN ERA------ " DO WHAT THY WILL" , hail LUCIFER!

In the 19th Century, Crowley was a member of secret societies. By 20 Aleistar joined the "HERMANTIC ORDER OF THE GOLDEN DAWN" the first order and  lowest tier of the "SOCIETUS ROSICURIANAS EN ANGLIA", (S.R.I.A.),  founded by "FREEMASONS" Samuel Mathers, William Woodman and William Hardon. (S.I.R.A.) was a appending body to the FREEMASONS. Later Hardon went on the find "THEOSOPHICAL SOCIETY'' another organization dedicated to the study of occult and mystical unwritten law. Many freethinkers and artist of the times were listed as members of these secret societies of (S.I.RA.), "GOLDEN DAWN, FREEMASONS and THEOSOPHICAL SOCIETY. People such a the poet William Butler Yeats, Joseph Conrad, Jon Cocteau, Pope Joseph II,  Marcel Duchamp, Dali, Picasso, Fredrick Fellini, Truffaut, Thomas Mann, Herman Hesse.

The teachings of the Secret Societies are presented to aspirants as layers of curriculum to build a  foundation. Still in sync with FREEMASON learning structures of today.  The layers of curriculum could be represented as follows:

THE GOLDEN DAWN the outer or first layer of curriculum, but all three layers collectively are known as THE GOLDEN DAWN.

   

First Level or Outer Level: GOLDEN DAWN is based on the study of the HERMANTIC QABALAH ( root: Mystic Judaic study of Kabbalah).  The curriculum focuses on three elements;  Qabalah, Tarot and Astrology.

Intermediate Level or Inner Level: THE RUBY ROSE AND CROSS OF GOLD teaches the use of magic in everyday life to cast spells to influence political, economic events, love or personal endeavor. Astral travel for free flying fun with ANGELS or DEMONS.  Entering souls of political figures or to alter their focus to GOOD or EVIL. It is said that the BLUE BLOOD CONSPIRATORS OF EUROPEAN GENTRY, purveyors of the ILLUMINATI, ---300 year old plot of  BLUE BLOOD genetic linage to become EARTH KINGS AND DEMI-GODS, to use 500,000 survivors as chattel or slaves for material support, BLUE BLOODS, living in sufferage utopia, a perfect world of demigods, nobility--- empowered Crowley to  associate with the founders of Nazism. Crowley genetically engineered Hitler using astral projection and curses to fine tune his (Hitler's) inner-man to extraordinary rank of evil. He cut the chain of young Hitler as the eldest child and ruptured baby Adolph's umbilical cord  injecting it with demon bile. Planting the black seed in Hitler and lighting a macabre black charismatic aura to attracted other human demons of black bile, (Hitlers Henchman). In behest, to achieve greater genocide for the masters of the ILLUMINATI, killing off more of the earth's population. As Crowley whaled into the dimness of the 20th Century devilry, HAIL the dark one, LUCIFER (hail SATAN!). 


Fabled Third Level : THE SECRET CHIEFS: Members who had risen above the real world,  and who live mostly in the ether-world. Some might call them ghost, but they are not ghost. Hardly, lost spirits banging around in ether-world, but inordinately evolved psyche beings that take human or spirit form at will. Psyche beings that can influence world events. THE SECRET CHIEFS are not ANGELS, neither GOOD or EVIL. They "DO WHAT THY WILL"! At times evil, doing vile and shocking things, repulsive deeds, moving through the ether-world, committing extrasensory vandalism for kicks, circumspection, wariness, striking down babies or children. They might assassinate world leaders, or taxi drivers. Their motives are unclear. At other times THE SECRET CHIEFS, might play ANGEL and save someone from a car wreak. They operate with no consistent modus ponens. One thing for sure they don't give a flying fuck about plain-vanilla, no great shakes Joe Blow weighted down in material motives of the world. Nor are they moved by award winning people with accolades, Nobel Prize, Oscars or Grammy winners. Celebrities were marks that they would play with by spiking their tea, or creating compromising situations to dishonor, shame or embarrass them.  Political leaders are marks to assassinate, they will fill their (world leaders) souls with evil or use world leaders to gain control of events. Overall though, THE SECRET CHIEFS care little about human-kind, their woes or troubles. They are a free wheeling lot whose motives are not known.

ASIDE: From my research, I am not sure why Crowley summoned the brobdingangian plumb of evil in the 20th Century. Was it a grand experiment? 

Did Aleistar get sadistic sexual pleasure garnered from suffering and torture of others?  Crowley saw first hand the poor souls of  the Concentration Camps while touring Germany with his friend Herman Goebbels. Or was Crowley a member of THE SECRET CHIEFS? Enjoying the pleasures of the material world, chosen to write a aspirants' curriculum. 

Was Crowley a son of the Devil doing Lucifers work? Or was he a puppet of the Illuminati Blue Blood conspiracy? Doing his evil to reduce world population through genocide?  The scope and envelopment of Crowley in the evil circumstance of the Nazi Holocaust as well as Stalin's Gulag, Mao's Revolution of One (All genocides of immensity) will never be known. But, he was there in spirit and as a material force. And perhaps he was one of THE SECRET CHEIFS by the 20th Century, able to influence world political phenomenon from the spiritual and the material world. Crowley never really gave a press conference to the world explaining what he was capable of or did (No one would believe him anyways).  What Crowley did leave behind is a detailed curriculum and course illustrated with geometrics, numerology and latin, parts of which are still in-scripted as curriclum for Freemasons, Skull & Bones and Wegans today. DE LIBRE OF ALEISTAR CROWLEY is the chronicle he left behind to explain his years of experiment in black occult and evil.

In 1904 Crowley traveled to Egypt with his new bride Rose.  Aleistar had a mystical experience on a barren moon night, the planets were in line with Scorpio 3-2-1, a night of fine crescent moon and star, a pernicious black night. A night of little faith or inspiration, a flat night. A night to hide in your tent and pray in earnest to whatever God who might take pity on one's poor crestfallen earthling soul. 

Rose began to behave bizarrely in Cairo. Rose had occurrences of seizures, convulsions, uncontrollable orgasms like waterfalls that shook her body. Rose was in a smashing state,  frenzied sermonizing in ancient tongues. Crowley felt Roses soul, spirit, and womb had been raped and purged by THE SECRET CHIEFS.  Rose's voice from beyond gave Aleistar instructions to perform a invocation at the EGYPTIAN TOMB of HURUS, which was a success. Crowley learned that he was a prophet with a message to deliver to the  material world. The voice told Crowley to wait for further instructions from the pneuma suzerain THE SECRET CHIEFS. He was told to give the world a alternative curriculum to the BIBLE,  the LIBRE DE ALEISTAR CROWLEY. Only the LORD above or LUCIFER below will ever know how Crowley mandated and unchained the vile nefariosisms on the 20th Century and for what reasons?

Aleistar Crowley wanted to fashion a reformist alternative to the transcendent impediment of  20th century ironclad, tight-lipped, bovine, exactitude of  Catholicism and Anglicism. Anglican theologic interpretations of GOD as secret and unascertained HEAVAN. As something you can't see but can only accept on faith. Religious leaders of the times laid down anachronistic laws that were chaste and guilt ridden. Religious laws that frustrated and stupefied the masses, "the yoke of  feudalism". Laws that forbid free love, gay sex, masturbation, nudity, freedom of art and expression. Worst of all, THEOLOGIC DOGMA that should bring one to the inner-part of ether-al galaxia was used to block astral traveling, projection, deep soul rebirthing and transcendentalism, the very things that human-kind needs and needed to connect to our SUN KING GOD. 

ASIDE: As far as the 21 Century is concerned---American variety Evangelism, Jewish or Muslim zealotry, belief as anachronism---- little has changed. These medieval and obsolescent religions do create war, guilt and mystic blockade on Planet Earth. Aleistar Crowley as a artist, prophet and free thinker saw through the bullshit, and did his own fucking thing---DO AS THY WILL--- Enjoying dope, orgy, pagan ritual, astral projection, writing free verse poetry. His life style scared most people then and now.

In his autobiography "The Confessions of Aleistar Crowley" he said: "I was remarkable from the moment of birth. I bore the three most important distinguishing marks of a Buddha. I was tongue-tied, and on the second day of my incarnation a surgeon cut the fraenum linguae (tongue). I also had the characteristic membrane, which necessitated an operation phimosis three lustres later. Lastly, I hade upon the centre of my heart four hairs curling from left to right in the exact form of a Swastika."

Crowley was known as the "Wickedest Man in the World" in the 19th and 20th centuries. In the Victorian era his life style was off the charts. The press had a field day with his outrageous appearance and utterances. Today his behavior could be compared perhaps to certain temporal and passing behavior of rock stars, movie stars or rappers----Jimmy Page, Ozzy Osbourne, The Rolling Stones and even The Beatles were perhaps possible confederates of Aleistar Crowley for a fleeting period only, or at least have studied his curriculum in LA LIBRE OF ALEISTAR CROWLEY. Rappers Tupac Sukar and 50 Cent often sang of the GANSTA ILLUINATI---. AC was a world traveler, mountaineer, chess player, a gifted performance artist, a free thinker, a junky who experimented with, opium, mescaline, ganja, ether, morphine. He was a poet and artist who was tweaking square and spurious Victorian morays. 

Many of his writings and thoughts seem to be as relevant today as they were in the 19th and 20th Century, especially with 21st Century obsession with ARMAGEDDON, RAPTURES and the coming of the ANTI-CHRIST 666. Crowley if alive today could have played the role of ANTI-CHRIST to perfection. Not only as a actor on the world stage, but using the powers of THE SECRET CHIEFS to bring on RAPTURES. 

Crowley writings also include teachings of TAO, the CONFUCIAN philosophy of YIN & YANG.  AC's curriculum in  LA LIBRE  addresses good as well as evil as magnetic self activating forces.

In the LIBRI  chapter, "Pentecost" in the text "The Sword Song" Crowley explains himself in a poem that is both revealing and chilling.  Aleistar's poem as follows, addresses the YIN & YANG, the ancients, the idea that the SUN IS GOD. And, he takes a informal belt at the press of the day, funny chaps---who in reality were utterly clueless of the gradation and sheer stratums dominion of Crowley's influence on the Nazi's and other evil-doers of the 20th Century.

I find some folks think me (for One)

So great a fool that I disclaim Indeed Jehovah's hate for shame

That man today should not be weaned

Of worshipping so foul a fiend

In presence of the living Sun

Any yet replace him oiled and clean

By Egyptian Pantheon,

The same thing by another name.

Thus when late Egyptian Pantheon,

The same thing by another name.

Thus when late Egyptian Gods

Evoked ecstatic periods

In verse of mine, you thought I praised

Or worshipped them--I stand amazed.

I merely wished to chant in verse

Some aspects of the Universe

Summed up these subtle forces finely,

And sang of them (I think divinely)

In name and form; a fault perhaps--

Reviewers are such funny chaps!

I think ordinary folk, 

Though, understood the things I spoke. 

For Gods, and devils too, I find

Are merely modes of my own mind.

Crowley was well versed in BUDDHIST TEACHING,  understanding that at times good and evil was centered between one's ears.

 In SVB FIGVRA X he details his mission on earth as a prophet. He explains that he sees both light and dark in himself.  AC calls the rays he sends forth to the small dark orb (the world or earth) V.V.V.V.V. .

AC sees himself as coming from beyond the Space of the dark orb. To deliver words that the world is not yet ready to hear. (very true in the 19th century and even now perhaps).

Crowley believes that certain men received his message.  He feels his universal knowledge is not for all men. That few are called but many are chosen. 

He speaks of " many and diverse conditions of life upon this earth. In all these is some seeds of sorrow. Who can escape from sickness and death. (true enough)

And in the spirit of the "Course of Miracles"  he speaks of a life intense with knowledge and extreme bliss which is untouched by earthlings but lives amongst us. 

So perhaps Crowley has a lighter side too. Maybe the truth he found in experiments with occult and ethereal phenomenon reveals more universal truth than the major religions of the day. But much of it is just too shocking for most ears and eyes of our times. 

As Crowley began to live in the spiritual world more using mescal, esoteric teachings and chanting, he began to speak of a wonder in the third world that was a enriching and splendorous. " They shall say he is lost in the clouds. But he shall rejoice in the sunlight" THE SUN IS GOD.

ASIDE: Crowley s teachings in LE LIBRE OF ALEISTAR CROWLEY are astronomical and ginormous. I don't attempt to wear the hat of the scholar or evoker here. The story is my interpretation of what Crowley was about, there are many more astute and sagacious studies of Aleistar Crowley than my simple story. THIS IS JUST A STORY! conjured up by the beast Figaro Lucowski, a jollification of hedonism perhaps. 

ASIDE: In the interest of the reader I think it might be interesting to give a brief synopsis of Aleistar Crowley's latter years. In his life he was a infant-terrible, a literary and erudite pet of High Society. He bedded many wealthy and beautiful heiresses. High Society Dames of the time had a bizarre fascination with the occult, so it opened allot of financial doors for Crowley. He was not as accepted in Academia of the day. I think his extramundane, ethereal and paranormal prowess were not  part of 19th and early to mid 20th Century Academia. And put simply, MOST WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE SHIT HE DID AND WAS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYWAYS? 

In Crowley's latter life he lived life beyond his means. It could be said that Crowley ether-world travel and evil doing as grounded in fantasy perhaps, were not earthen for financial chastity and restraint. Notwithstanding, was the fact that he never shook his drug addiction and was heavily addicted till death. By 1939 he had to file for bankruptcy. His popularity as Master of High Society which-craft was finished, even the ether-world couldn't help him now from his bad karma. His books DIARY OF A DRUG ADDICT and MAGICK IN THEORY AND PRACTICE provided small royalties,  he was forced to live in a boarding house, as a junky. Crowley's past began to catch up with him while living in England during World War II.  He admitted to being a force in the birth of he Nazi Party and Hitler, saying "Before Hitler, Am I" the comment was a death knoll for Crowley as far as societal acceptance. He died a woeful, pitiful, lamentable and disturbed man. 

In 1947 on December 1, Aleistar Crowley died of a heart attacked caused by his failure to get a script for morphine,  cascading into junk sickness and withdrawal from which he would never return. 

Nobody will ever know what he did or was capable of doing for sure, but he very well was the most powerful and evil Magician of the 19th and 20th Century.


FIGARO LUCOWSKI, JUNE 20, 2010

Hash Oil Factory Part 1

South Milwaukee, Wisconsin was in the deep freeze during the winter of 1983, everything froze up, it was impossible to get a pizza delivered without it turning to ice before it came to your door. Figaro was working part time at the Harley Factory on Juneau Avenue, spray painting Harley tanks, fenders and side covers as they flowed by, strung on wire hooks and chain. $8.75 a hour and no benefits. FL lived in a room in a old south side factory, with no heat or electricity. There was Fig and big Mikey, AKA his 'countship'.  To survive we set up propane heaters and slept in our snow mobile suits with space blankets. If the propane heaters ever blew, our snow suits would fire up like spark in dry pine. We would use bedside buckets at night to pee because the only toilets in the old factory were frozen thru. 

Fig and big Mikey were working for the drug lord of Milwaukee,  Jimmy,  AKA the 'Chemist'.  On the second level of the old factory, sitting on the mighty 100 year old scantling, sat a 200 gallon stainless steel drum that the Chemist had welded up as a hash oil distillery.

Fig and big Mikey were paid $225 cash a day. A hefty sum for us poor south-side boys. Figaro was stashing the money from work at the Harley Factory and hash oil still to "flee da holy by Jesus"  out of deep freeze  Milwaukee for paradise, Mexico City.

Working at Harley spray painting tanks was awful on Figaro Lucowski's lungs, It was as though the tradition of  'The Wisconsin Death Trap" the rugged wooden cross of self destruction, socialism and Jesuit teachings, meant that as young men, both Fig and big Mikey would do dangerous work selflessly. After work, all young Jesuit south-side socialista were required to  destroy their bodies even further, doing boiler makers (shots of well whiskey dropped in large steins of Blatz).  Smoking filterless cigarettes, only Luckys and the rare pack of Camels were true to form.

The work with the giant 200 gallon stainless steel hash oil still was extremely dangerous. Using canisters of propane run through copper piping to stoke the slow burning flame under the drum. Boiling dried, shredded ganja mixed with butane and flaxseed oil, in minutes a supercritical fluid extractio, hash oil seeping through. The Chemist would show up from time to time, like a Wehrmacht engineer, with a pointer, quantifying, lecturing, shacking his head stiffly, not enough hash oil. Fig and big Mickey knew the still didn't have enough ventilation, one spark, boom and out like two fleshy fire balls.  The metal work, tightening, welding, wiping the drum clean, had to be done before loading the ganja mix and firing up. Once fired, Fig and big Mikey wrapped up in green army flannel. Any mental; belts, chains, keys, crucifixes, engineer boots removed. "Smoke em if you got em" filterless, Luckys dipped in Hash Oil outside the factorium meters from the still. There was allot of in-between or downtime, listening to blues & jazz on a ghetto box, powered by a small Honda gas engine generator.  Three or four meals a day, Meatball and Tuna subs from Subway,  Cheesy Dans Pizza and coffee from the Coffee Trader.

Fig was working the spray paint line at Harley, it was burgundy flake day, at break time FL got a  call on the Harley factory phone from a the Chemist. Using code he said that the newspaper had been shut down because of lack of circulation, telling Fig to pick up his shit, paycheck and beat it. The still wasn't producing enough hash oil to cover expenses. Jimmy was making so much money as Milwaukee's number 1 coke supplier, the hash oil scheme was a jape, a five minute coca vision.

Aside: The Chemist eventually got busted after Figaro Lucowski was long gone from the hash oil scene. He did five years in a Federal pen and roomed with the Reverend Jim Baker. He later told Fig that Jim Baker was the most impossibly anal person in the world. Baker's job at the pen was cleaning toilets, wiping every one of them personally. After the Chemist did his time, he used the coca money he stashed in a locker at the "YWCA"  to buy up real estate on Milwaukee's Eastside. He was a great guy really who invented the phrase "sport fucking" and  never got  involved in any violence in all his years of dealing coca. 

Lucowski in the earily eighties would buy his clothes in the hispanic neighborhood of Milwaukee's South-side, Leo's Wholesale. Pants with color, burgundy, brown, purple. Long pimp loafers, red and brown, lumber man boots in winter. Knee length brown or black leather coats, shirts, open collar of all colors, and always the essential fashion accessory, a Harley leather wallet with chain. With hair died black to his waist, Figaro Lucowski was a rare breed of white-bread peacock, biker, junk and pimp. 

Figaro was out of a job and broken hearted after breaking up with his platinum haired beatnik old lady Pearl. With a healthy stash of cash, Lucowski would venture into dark caverns of gothic night and fuel bars, snorting coca mixed with heroin, drinking cognac to keep warm in still winter. He would prey on goth geishas using coke and hash oil, laying Trout lines, Gold-fishing, skilled at breaking down tough exteriors with false words of love, he could fuck women and girls every night of the week, Still dead inside, missing Pearl.

Lucowski had  one VCD. He watched it over and over, he memorized the lines, it was his touchstone, his bible and savior, his personal lotus charm. 'The Night of the Iguana' the John Huston film, screenplay by the brilliant Tennessee Williams. FL was bi polar with brain endings that needed kick starting.  He loved watching the opening scene, Richard Burton as Reverend T. Lawrence Shannon breaking down as he delivered his sermon to his flock of grey faced puritans. Lucowski would watch Shannon breaking down over and over again, as though 'the something' that was breaking down in Shannon was breaking in Lucowski as well.

Aside: Religion for me is personal and subjective, it does not need to be hung from a crucifix, memorialized in Rome, participate in unholy wars or wear payot.

Modern day religion; preceding, out of touch, restraining mother earth and human kind from breath taking spirituality and transcendence. If Jesus, Mohammad or Mose came back to earth they would all be appalled! You could liken this to Norman Mailer's metaphor on NASA rockets blowing spent jet fuel into space, disturbing the angels highly tuned sensitivities. 

Aside: I wrote the preceding statement a year ago and have since become a atheist who holds tight to fantasies of angel names like:  Galgliel- Haamaih- Jophiel- Lailah- Manakel- Trgiaob

It was March in Milwaukee, still winter. Lucowski had watched "The Night of The Iguana" a couple of thousand times. Figaro was unemployed, broken hearted over the loss of platinum haired Pearl, so cold that he could feel it in his bones, sitting on $10,000, he figured it was time to make a pilgrimage to Mexico City. Lucowski could remember winter vacation with his family in Mexico in1968. One such flashback went like this, as written in Lucowski's diary.

My best Christmas memories are unconventional and have nothing to do with garlands, cozy fires and egg nog.
In 1967 I spent Christmas in Mexico with my family. We were staying at the Las Hamacas Hotel on Acapulco Bay. In front of the hotel, on the bay, there was a small taco cafe that had a juke box with a few gringo hits, topical music of the time. Psychedelica: The Doors, Jefferson Airplane, Grateful Dead, The Rolling Stones and Beatles.


On Christmas Day, I met a Californian surfer dude with blond shoulder length hair and his younger sister from Malibu, they were also staying with their parents at the Las Hamacas. We shared a common interest, scoring some marijuana. We were told to look for a local Mexican by the name of "Maestro Magico". The process of scoring was like a pagan ritual. When we found the Maestro, we scored a few fingers of "Acapulco Gold" wrapped in paper sack.

We Three Kings went back to the Las Hamacas, hid in the toilet and turned on. It was my first time; we sat at the pool and threw small stones in, watching the water ripple outwards as ringlets, expanding , each ripple a Sacred Malady of life.
When we got bored with the pool we decided to go body surfing. We were fithteen and seventeen, but the Mexicans on the beach sold us all the Corona and tequila we wanted. Corona was great in those days, comparable to german beer in thickness. We were smashed in a seconds, we smoked our Acapulco gold openly on the deserted beach.


After the sunset, we went back to the Los Hamacas to crash. I passed out with my surfer friend’s sister in their room.  Joy, blind without her oval tortus shelled specs, long sepia hair, pear like breast exposed allot in her macramé bikini. She was a angel. We  fumbled and managed to get it on somehow. I didn't know where her vagina was for sure, guessing it was somewhere between her legs. Back then in the late sixties, tongue swallowing kissing, was the best thing happening.


Through a mescal golden haze later that night, I realized I missed Christmas dinner with my family. When my mother got hold of me, she verbally hammered out the "riot act" in triplets. Then she smacked the shit out of me, punching me a few times, calling me a little shit. She was a tough old Army RN for sure. The discipline was energizing, in a few years at sixteen I left home. 

But I am going to tell you, the ass kicking I got was worth it.  For those who may breeze through the diary of scared beast, that groundbreaking Christmas was the best on record. No church or crucifix, garland or colored light, no cozy fire place, no fat dinner, could make me as happy as the parting of: Virgin angelica and sacrifice, I enjoyed the night.

Some times dreaming on mescaline, Lucowski remembered reading "The Night of The Iguana" was filmed in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. He wondered if the dried leaf roofed and cheap brick beach houses were still there? FL visualized, hoping somehow, that the players were all in place, interacting.  Some local Mexican actors could have taken over and carried on, play acting the parts as the windmill churned, a memorium playhouse or ghost hotel:

(T Lawrence Shannon, shit canned by the Anglicans, holding his crucifix spatially in the face of demons, busted on a tequila bender, guileless, working as a guide for  a cheap ass tour company, breaking down, living between heaven and hell, bringing puritan church ladies to a blah blah's dumpy banana leaf and coconut tree resort, with gay pimp marimba beach boys, a opium smoking chinaman cook, wasted, lying on a Parrot fishbone, a white haired 90 year old Brit poet, not unlike Frost reciting Orpheus's Exit, left over drunken Argentinian Nazis nudist saluting 'hail Hitler', cocks at attention, enjoying gay sex and tequila orgies in the jungle AS SEEN THROUGH THE PIERCING NIGHT EYES OF A LONLEY IQUANA ---PATHOS PAUCITY---- TIED UP ON A PIECE OF TWINE…….)

One day, oh about, the middle of May in 1983, it was still cold in Milwaukee. Lucowski began to sense that something was breaking inside him, and that all the beer and pussy in the city couldn't warm him up. A few days earlier, platinum Pearl gave Figaro a VCD for his birthday. Pearl thought he was behaving weirdly; mishegas-shlimazel-messiah-savanthood disorder she called it. The VCD  starring FL's idol Richard Burton and Richard's inamorata immortal Elizabeth Taylor was 'Who's Afraid of Virginia Wolfe?" by the great Edward Albee. Figaro dropped some mescaline to tune into the screenplay. The dialogue was brilliant, but astrally damaging on mescaline. He had to drink a bottle of cognac to shake it off. Like a bent green twig, bent too far, Lucowski snapped towards the middle of the fourth act as Martha said to George "you make me puke", George replies, "Martha, in my mind you're buried in cement right up to the neck. No, up to the nose, it's much quieter". The sixth act propelled Lucowski into the stratosphere, somewhere between proper mental hygiene and "talkin to the Devil",  George's soliloquy did him in---"You take the trouble to construct a civilization, to build a society based on the principles of... of principle. You make government and art and realize that they are, must be, both the same. You bring things to the saddest of all points, to the point where there is something to lose. Then, all at once, through all the music, through all the sensible sounds of men building, attempting, comes the Dies Irae (Latin: mass for the dead). And what is it? What does the trumpet sound? Up yours !--- George's existential, academically astute cynicism didn't mix well with Lucowski's mescaline trip.  ~FL~  Monday, May 24, 2010

MESCALINE AND MEXICO CITY Part 2 of HASH OIL

On June 1, 1983, it snowed, rain and snow in Milwaukee. It was not a true winter snow, fifteen feet of torturous snow that you dig your way out of like the trenches of Verdun. It was sickening slop. After six months of being cold all the time, seeing the sun rarely, you felt as though the ichor in your bones was frozen and your soul was industrial soot.

Lucowski felt radio waves of Morris Code in Spanish that adrenalized him.  FL put some shit in his clutch. The Kerouac uniform: all cotton, polyester was way too fucking hot for Mexico. He used the same boy scout duffel bag with emblem, that he used when he left home at 15. It was a talisman and lucky charm.

FL had phobic fear of flying. He hated everything about flying. He hated the formality and ass kissing, the feeling of being a cow led to the slaughter-house. The air host & hostesses were like prison guards in his eyes. Worst of all was a the torture of getting a window seat next to the wing. On continent to continent flights over Atlantic or Pacific, when the plane would hit turbulence, Lucowski would gaze from his wooden overcoat at the wing and wonder how the rivets, as big as nails could keep the wings from busting up and falling into the sea.

And the safety bull (instructions before the Trans-Atlantic flight) he knew all the fucking inflatable tarps and life vest, barf bags, brave airline stewardess, skilled pilots couldn't  save your ass if you went down in the middle of the Atlantic. "Tuck and cover," kiss your ass good bye.  A half hour of highly pitched terror, last minute rights of passage and mea culpa unimaginable.

While everyone else was praying and posturing on the way down, FL imagined running to first class and securing a bottle of cognac, glomming on a raven haired, winsome and beauteous stewardess while draining the sauce, cascading to ground zero.

So, flying to Mexico City was out, and taking a Grey Hound bus to San Diego was in.  Pearl would drive him to Chicago. She had a new boyfriend, Winchell Cromwell, a young bartender at "Skull &Bones" he also worked at "Killer Fuel Cafe". Pearl had long naturally white unpigmented hair which she wore in Sioux braids or up wrapped with a chopstick. She was a beatnik poetess who knew and corresponded with Allen Ginsburg on a regular basis. She lived with her daughter in a small room over " Killer Fuel Cafe." Her room was painted sea green, mother earth, "hip to the bone".

Pearl refused to take on his (Lucowski's)  psychodrama any longer. She let FL drive her old Volkswagen while she sat shot gun, driving south on the Wisconsin Turnpike, they smoked skunk weed with the windows open. Pearl gave Lucowski a farewell blow job.

The Chicago Greyhound Bus Station was near Maxwell Street (where parts of the "Blues Brothers" were filmed), and near the Belushi family greek restaurant "Olympia". Pearl dropped FL off with little adieu.  She hugged FL and said "ta-ta-ta" a Gary Snyder Zen beatism, put into words: a rose is a rose is a rose (or) first you see the mountain, then it disappears, then you see the mountain again. Lucowski could never seem to see the  mountain at all.

The Greyhound Bus Station gave Lukowski the same feeling he would get in jail, grey. Most people riding buses couldn't afford to fly, being at the bottom of the food chain. Figaro had the usual first aid kit of dope and booze in his duffle bag.  In the eighties you could ride a Greyhound with any kind of dope you wanted, because you weren't driving. The secret of successful Greyhound Bus riding was to keep your mouth shut, but be discerning when you did start up a conversation. You could keep a nice buzz on. Bring plenty of brown heroin, symmetrically snorted with gulps of Vodka. Lucowski would buy a can of King Edward snuff, empty it, and put heroin in. 

(Goin south with the bus window wide open, blowing sweet air in your face, in reverie, fantasia and REM. Pleasing the mind, more than a plane ride on Nazi Airlines).

Ebony sisters were the sable queens of the bus line. I think it had to do with their marvelous pure-breed genes, look at Ray Charles's mother, she loved the blind child like a RAY of moonlight, raising him to take the edge off the world's heart, the blessed black Jesus. Lucowski at times would ride the bus for hundreds of miles, tweaking out on heroin, drinking vodka with sable sisters, even making out with and enjoying jasmine scent of sweet sisterhood.

FLs Greyhound reached Texas seven days later. For Lucowski the ride was so so: A Greyhound in hooplets that would expand slowly at a snails pace, navigating the United States. As he looked out the open window, blinded slightly in opium vapor, he was a white black man, RAY, feeling sable sisters wrist and loving, smelling desert and tropic air, seeing yellow haze and red Georgian mud outside, sometime his mind going deep inside, into creek and Song Hong River bed of glory amuse.

When the Greyhound bus reached Lubbock, Lucowski was junk sick and itching some, feeling heroin and diesel poison in his gut, nauseaum. Spewing his guts out in the nefarious and execrable bus toilet. He bought out the whole supply of Bromo-Seltzer from the bus station store.  427 miles to San Diego, the bus was full of young white guys, dumb yokel cowboys with pimples, on their way to Camp Lajun. His love, sable and jasmine soul sisters, long gone, exiting at Georgia and Arkansas. The young recruits rubbernecked the strung out Lucowski like, "Sid Vicious on a  the subway in New York City" a vile, half conscious sick vermin. FL still had an ounce of skunk weed Pearl gave him, he made a quick trip to a liquor store and bought chocolate liquor and vodka to mix with canned milk. FL would go on the booze and weed maintenance program the next 427 miles. 2000 miles of hooplets expanding, yellow heroin, unveiling secrets of the soul and beautiful vision, in the end, opium beat the shit out of him every time.

77 miles outside of Lubbock the bus stopped in Honkeville. Lucowski went into a western shop and looked at cowboy boots and hats. He liked the straw style cowboy hat that your needed to role up, step on, rub in cow shit a few times before it was wearable. FL looked at some brown soft leather calf skin boots. He had done part time work one summer as a kid, on a ranch in Nebraska. FL loved riding fence for miles and miles, he could mend barbwire or string it, pound post, string wire over a creek. He loved being in nature alone on a horse or a dirt bike.  

Ranching, raising cattle for sale, putting hamburgers on the plates of America was appalling to Lucowski. He can remember the sinking feeling he would get during round ups and branding. Fig would look in the cows eyes and see terror. He loved animals.When he asked the foreman if it bothered him that all these lovely animals were headed to the slaughter house, the old grizzled cowboy would spit some red man and say, "Son it's just commerce". 

Lucowski worked the other end of animal slaughter as science fiction horror and commerce as well. He worked as a packer at a Swift Meats slaughter house on the South Side of Milwaukee. Figaro, at the end of the slaughter and commerce line, loading skinned and frozen half torsos, cattle carcass that should be buried with full rights, not eaten, into refrigerated semi-truck coaches. You could see the rivers of blood leading to and flowing from the killing floor.

As the Greyhound bus pulled out of Honkeville, FL left with a new straw cowboy hat that didn't smell real good, he left the "calfskin" boots at the cowboy store. He passed out in his seat, he smelled like shit, none of the Marine recruits would get near him.  He drank himself into a backwash of unconsciousness to get through junk sickness.

The bus driver had to throw a few cups of water in Lucowski's face at the San Diego Greyhound station. He told FL that he thought he was bum, to go get some coffee. The driver told Lucowski he smelt like vomit: "fucking hippy take a bath" and "don't ever get on  a Greyhound bus again". The recruits were long gone headed to Camp Death, Lajun.  Lucowski thought to himself, those poor bastards (Marine recruits) don't know what they are getting into. As well as, what in the hell happened on this bloody bus? He could remember little of it?

A few blocks away from Greyhound  FL was walking on the sidewalk with his duffle bag heading nowhere (erehwon). Figaro could feel "rays glorious" of sun light, smell papaya flowers, tropical air and ocean blue. He hitch hiked to Ocean Beach and wiggled his toes in the sand,  stripping down to his boxer shorts, FL dived into the Pacific Ocean. Lucowski body surfed for hours, it was like being baptized, given a new life,  no longer junk sick, headed to Mexico City. Figaro was screaming for joy inside, he had chicken skin, re-birthed and free at last from frozen tundra and factorium of the "Milwaukee Death Trap", Jesuit and socialist hell.

After swimming he cruised downtown San Diego on foot.  FL ate bean burritos and rice, smoked a joint in the alleyway.  He got a tattoo of a celtic cross embellished with a red heart on his forearm. He had his mothers name inscribed on a banner wrapped around the heart "Pauli Mae RIP". 

That night he got a taste for mescal with the worm in the bottle. FL went into a Chicano bar under a beltway overpass. Hector's had one bartender, cantina music that was deafening. The place was packed with migrant workers, men and women in flannel shirts, green and khaki chinos. Dark skinned from working their fingers to the bone picking grapes or oranges in the sun. It was a friendly atmosphere and Lucowski got on well with the Mexicans. A colossus brown man, who was over 6 feet tall and weighed at least 330 pounds approached Figaro, sitting at the bar. He asked "gringo what are you doing here"? He had long hair down to his back and a "fu man chu" chops. It turned out he was a member of the Hells Angels, not wearing his colors. Lucowski rolled a joint and he and Chico went outside and got high in the alley. The two hit it off well, FL showed proper respect and didn't bullshit Chico. Talking, Figaro told Chico about his years working at Harley Davidson and in the Hash Oil factory in Milwaukee. At bar time Chico and FL were blasted. Chico said Lucowski could crash at his and his old ladies digs. FL put his duffle bag into the back of Chico's pickup. 

Death metal turned up full volume, FL rolled a joint. 

Chico's house was a typical Southern California stucco track style house. He kept his Harley and tool box in the garage. He had two kids and his wife worked as operator for Ma Bell. He was a Hells Angel, who rode with his chapter when the time came, but was a good family man. The next morning Chico's old lady made a Mexican breakfast and we talked with his two daughters until school time. 

Chico thought it would be a good idea for FL to buy a cheap used car in San diego, cross the boarder, drive it till it died and dump it . Lucowski bought a 68 Dodge, ugly sepia color, the floor was rusting so bad that Chico and Lucowski had to saw and bolt pieces of plywood on ther rusted out floor, so your feet wouldn't fall through to the road. Chico asked Lucowski if he would give two farm workers a ride to Tijuana, a married couple. The three of us left from Chico's house at 9am on a Sunday Morning,  San Diego time. The farm worker couple were sweet and appreciative to get the ride. Their names were Maria and Juan De Jesus. We loaded up the rusted out Dodge boot with FLs duffle bag Maria and Juan's cardboard grape boxes, wrapped in plain cord. God only knows what was inside, it could have been raw uncut Columbian blow for all Lucowski knew. We all gave our friend Chico a hand shake and gave him a pat on the back. He had his Hells Angels colors on. Chico's chopped Harley was on the front lawn, for a last minute check over before going to a meeting at the club house and on a ride up north. 

Lucowski backed out of the drive and headed for Turnpike 666, heading directly south to Tijuana. The old Dodge moved pretty good,  Juan sat shot gun with FL and Maria went to sleep on the back seat. We must have been a sight: two migrant farm workers and a gringo, driving slowly in the right lane. The old rusted out  car needed new piston rings, it wouldn't rev faster than 79 rpm. Within a few hours we reached immigration at the Mexico border. The square jawed US Custom's dicks told us to pull over to the side. It was a peice of cake for the cretan imbeciles to check the floor board for dope, all they needed was a crescent wrench to take out the plywood flooring Chico and FL had put in. No dope or Mexican midget wrestlers hidden under the floor board.  Figaro had a few unopened bottles and cans of chocolate liquor, vodka, evaporated milk and Bromo-Seltzer in his duffle bag. The Bromo-Seltzer had to be litmus tested. Reaching high water mark, the dicks saw the card board boxes in the boot of the dodge. Lucowski didn't know what was in the boxes and hoped it wasn't dope or severed heads in plastic bags. The Hells Angels had a bad rep to some. The dicks opened the boxes, Figaro crossed himself over his heart three times. The boxes were filled with pumpkin and watermelon seeds to be planted on Maria and Juan De Jesus's ranchero.

Once in Tijuana, Maria and Juan invited Figaro to stay on at their small ranchero?  He gave the old Dodge to them. They all hugged each other, Lucowski said thank you, but he had "important business" to take care of in downtown Tijuana.  He headed straight to the "Gringo Diabalo" cantina. FL's drink of choice in Mexico was mescal by the bottle, straight shots. He could see soft dark girly faces smiling from the shadows of the bar.  Lucowski brought his drink and sat down next to a middle aged Mexican scarlet women. Her painted purple lips, ovoid, seductive, an open invitation for oral sex. FL could see a roll of tissue paper by her side. After getting off in Molly's mouth, he drank a few more shots of mescal and headed with his duffle back to the bus station.

Lucowski bought a third class bus ticket to Mexico City. He could drink openly on the Mexican bus. Weed and dope were out of the question for now. Mexican mafia dressed as cops could bust you for booze money. FL had to get to Mexico City to score dope. He loved the farmer buses, they were safer than deluxe buses, which were newer and faster. The deluxe Mexican coach drivers had big egos and drove at great risk on the winding mountain roads. 

The 79 Chevrolet Sierra bus: with orange and red Santa Maria's on flat blue faded paint and yellow trim, not unlike the tour bus of the Reverend T. Lawrence Shannon. Lucowski took a seat next to an old Mexican women with snow white hair, olive tanned skin and deep facial wrinkles.  Her look was stoic and composed, a shaman who Lucowski knew to treat with the utmost respect and reverence.  He offered her a drink of mescal from a flask, she pulled a Lime out of a straw basket and quartered it. They shared a drink together. She was  90 years old, a healer and seer called Jopheil (an angels name). The two new pals began to get wasted together, in a few hours it was night in the flat desert. Lucowski felt the lovely lady nudge his arm, she put a small woven sack filled with dried mescaline buds in his hand. The two friends ate the buds.

Lucowski and Jopheil never spoke more than three words to each other, listening to the sound of shifting gears and  bus tires on the flat and cold desert roads.  Lukowski and Jopheil began to tweak, astral traveling to the Upper Room, flying with angels, peeking on the mescaline buds. They were in pure white light energy together at Satan's tomb. Jopheil got off the bus at La Rosa Casa, a small Mexican town were the desert meets the hills of Antigua. Lucowski rolled up a US Thousand dollar bill and gave it to her.

When the bus reached the edge of Mexico City FL felt like he was on the edge of hell riding through a ring of fire. The city was a cavernous underworld. FL needed to rest and shake off the antecedent nights astral session with Jopheil. Figaro got in a taxi and told the driver "Plaza De Revolucion". At the Plaza Lucowski gave the driver 200 pesos, grabbed his duffle bag and started walking. 

It was 9pm, Lucowski went directly to a large, 200 year old black stone and old brick antigua Catholic Church, "Santa Pedro". Figaro was a satanist who studied the occult teachings of Aleistar Crowley and astral projected on mescaline, but he never missed a chance to walk into a Mexico City church and "shake of the devil some". It gave him balance. The church terrace was full of women dressed in black, lights strung across the promenade, a festoon of orange, read and crimson flowers. Everyday Mexican people praying for a miracle to deliver them from their holdrum and hackneyed life.

Lucowski sat int the front pew, the air was adorned with the chanting sounds of low whisper praying in Spanish. He fell to his knees and kow towed before a beauteous and beatific Jesus on crucifix. He took out his flask and washed down a few left over mescaline buds in his pocket. Figaro stared at the face of Jesus, Jesus's lips started to move, Jesus lowered his head, Lucowski could feel heartfelt humanity. Lucowski elevated to the upper level of consciousness, sitting at a campfire with Jesus in a forrest. Jesus was chastened and self effacing reading from a book. 

After church, Lucowski picked up a Mexican whore and spent the night with her in his hotel room in drunken reverie, on a whim he thought it would be nice if Jesus could come down off the cross and be entertained by a Mexican whore and enjoy some Tequila with Lucowski. Jesus always seemed to have the weight of the world on his shoulders, stooped over, having to carry that heavy wooden cross for eternity. Figaro missed his pal Jopheil as well, maybe he would go back to La Casa Rosa tomorrow and find her, they could party some more.

FL got the feeling his "Pilgrimage to Mexico" had ended as it was supposed to.

~FL~ Saturday, June 5, 2010