Saturday at noon, I'm nursing a hangover so I drink a gallon of water. I have read of people dying because they drink too much water, I can't imagine that.
It’s hot out, I roll my hair up, rub sunblock on my face and body, putting on shorts and a shirt.
I walk for blocks and blocks, in awe of the psychic world around me, things still and moving are undulating in tandem. I feel seasick. I lay on my stomach in the grass of Brooklyn Bridge Park, hoping to avoid the worst and failing, dashing to the public restroom.
Being a boozer is a wreckless existence, it's perverse because you don't take care of yourself.
My mind's programmed to drink, I duck into the Bikini Bar
The bars, dark and spartan, full of Barflys drinking wine, the preferred drink of bums and hobos everywhere.
The flavor of the bar is bleak, unwashed faces looking down as they suck up their booze.
I got plenty of dough today,
The bartender says your no bum,
right, I'm a freelance writer,
what do ya write about fella,
sleazy bars.
I finish my drink, I’m hungry.
In Sam's Diner, I set next to the window watching folks walk by. They are all wearing the same mask, like in a scene from the TV show The Twilight Zone.
A young guy, a college student takes my order,
blueberry pancakes, coffee, a vanilla milkshake, and a bowl of grits.
In the bathroom, I snort a dime of cocaine, I feel jazzed, but it wears off quickly. I drew the line at coke, never doing a crack.
I had a friend, Neal, a jazz musician, who would search the dark streets of Brooklyn every night. At one time he was making good dough, playing clubs with big names, now he lived in his mother's basement, the floor was lined with broken antennas blackened by fire, and dirty clothes.
After eating I catch a bus to Central Park. The design and landscaping of the park is pristine. I make a B-line to the zoo.
The activities at the zoo revolve around monkey and seal feedings.
The seals live in a freshwater pool, sculptured into a 20-meter-high painted cement hill, it's depressing.
The seals dream of swimming free but are stuck in the zoo
A zoo is no place for an animal, the tiger Kingdom-style compounds treat animals better.
Wild animals are programmed to live in the wild.
The Monkey House is the saddest place of all. The primates are out of place, their minds are listless as they go through the motion for a peanut or banana.
Climbing trees, and frolicking with one other are other distractions.
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Monkey man, Gabriel Garcia Marquez was a dream weaver, who evolved as a writer, moving from newspaper to newspaper throughout his early life,
Gabo was pals with Fidel Castro, they drank Chevas Regel in Fidel's suburban Havana house discussing Latin literature.
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When Truman Capote read Kerouac he said,
that’s not writing it’s typing.
True to be seen, Trumans’ work is on a colossal level.
I have felt cursed throughout my 20s, 30s, 4os, up to today. I'm a hackneyed and run-of-the-mill writer without a way out.